Anxious
Annie
Anxiety commonly accompanies bipolar disorder. This horrible thing called anxiety, comes by way of chemical make up,
life experiences, and overall physical health. Low serotonin and GABA make it harder to deal with stress. A part of your
brain, the amygdala also plays a part in how you react to fear. If the amygdala isn't functioning right, then you make freak out a bit while struggling with a life issue.
Have you ever felt completely out of control and can't get relief? It's a horrible place to be stuck in. I've been down the rabbit hole more times than I can count. Anxiety is all consuming and all encompassing. To take the edge off, and you don't have a script for relief from anxiety, all I can offer is that you stay busy. It's not easy to do at first, but if you refuse to ignore the anxiety, it takes even longer to go away, and you'll create bad habits. You'll find yourself almost addicted to the anxiety over time. Without anxiety, you'll feel like something is missing, and then you may find yourself searching your mind banks for anxious topics. You may not feel normal without the anxiety. I've found myself doing this horrible thing, then I have to try and battle the anxiety I invited in.
Has anxiety kept you up at night, or have you become an insomniac due to anxiety? This can happen quickly because you can't separate your thoughts from a peaceful state of mind. It takes practice, but I recently saw a video that helped me tons. I've had really bad anxiety for most of my life. Then this video pops up the other week about meditating your anxiety away. The main thing the mentor said was to tell yourself, "leave it". That's all I needed to hear. Leave it meant to erase anything you were currently thinking about and go back to an empty place in your head. If you don't have an empty space, focus on a lighter place. Don't worry, you can still have thoughts, just not anxious ones. The moment you start focusing back on the anxious thoughts, tell yourself, "leave it," and start over. Do not get discouraged when you practice this technique. It is a form of meditation, meaning, when you find yourself wandering again, pull it back to the empty/safe places. After a while of doing this, you should see a big difference in your sleep. I've slept every night since I found the "leave it" technique. I can leave the thoughts for the morning. Bedtime is no place for anxiety, but seems to be anxiety's favorite time and place.